Bye bye Jack

And God says: to balance out the good things in the world, we shall create bad things.
And God says: Why don't we just push the bad things into Nisha's lap and forget about it?

Wait a minute, WHAT God precisely?

Lemme see, in the past 2 years, i've visited the police station 4 times.

1. car got broken into and bag got stolen.
2. FOS pervie tried to take picture of me.
3. Wallet got pickpocketed during deepavali.

ALL this I can stand. All this i can tolerate and take the blame for.

4. My Car eventually gets stolen.

I still haven't grasped the gravity of it. It still seems so surreal to say that out aloud. "My car got stolen". Seriously? Someone pinch me please. three times. THREEE TIMES my car gets broken into and waaaaayyyy to go Nisha. You've just proven that you have the shittiest luck in the whole world. Probably not but it feels so.

Goodbye my sweet dear Jack. I'll always remember you as my first car which was a rare manual Matrix, and all the girly fun moments we had in it! Omg, how can anyone stand the pain of losing a car?

Feeling loved

Special thanks to my classmates and Ms Grace for the delicious cake and the wonderful celebration! After all the hectic datelines and work and thesis, I really needed a reminder that my 21st is coming! Thanks guys!
May lollipops and toffees rain down on you always!

Wat the fuck is wrong with the college database. You type 'operant conditioning' and articles about "Spatial unmasking of birdsong in zebra finches" turn up. WTF?/#%$^@*@
And they want us to have f*cking references when they don't provide a near decent database.
This is the biggest mistake of my life.

I was looking through my files, and I found this quote that I copied down from TV cos I thought it was good.

"Everyone looks up to the circle so much and feels the need to fit in;
so much so that those who don’t mind being outside the circle should be beaten, brought down, or worse - pitied."

– Gregory House

What kind of world do we live in?

What a day.

From This:

To This:

To THIS!

All in one day. What a roller coaster of emotions

All i wanted was a few drinks and a laid back night to talk stories with my homies.
God, how could I let myself do such degrading things?
For a guy i whose name i don't even know. Just to prove a friggin point.
Thank God VU is on break. I dunno how to face that disrespectful jerk's face again if i see him in college.
I have a wild urge to throw beer on his face. Ugh, it disgusts me over & over.

I think i have some demons in me that i need to sort out.

If God had a form, he'd look like this.

Omg, I saw this photo, and I almost passed out like some drama queen.
Lo' and behold, People Magazine's Sexiest Man Alive for this year. FOR THE SECOND TIME!

You know how people cry and sob and faint when they see MJ? I would probably do that for Johnny Depp. I swear the moment that I meet him in real life, I'll be ready for any kinda death.
Man, can't someone make my dream come true?

Come on, Oprah??............. Ellen?........... Anybody!

Touched by an Angel. Er, a lecturer, actually.

What the fuck is wrong with fucking radio stations these days?
I spend 1 friggin hour in my car driving back and is it so much to ask for radio stations to actually shut their trap for a minute?
Fyi, NO, i DON"T want to know which celebrity's second cousin's mother-in-law's niece got hooked up with which celebrity's distant Romanian uncle who once dated which celebrity's grand aunt. If I wanted endless, pointless, talking, I'd turn on Oprah thanks.

Today I came back home in a sucky mood, to an empty house, and had to get my own dinner after having a terrible week. Then I open my email, and I see that I got a reply from my lecturer, Ms Grace, regarding my internship. I read it, and I actually cried. For the first time in my whole sorry semester, had anyone told me I was doing a good job, and told me to stay strong. I think I have complained to almost everyone I know about my position, thinking that I knew myself well enough to know that I just want someone to bitch with me. But today was the first time anyone actually gave me their undivided attention to encourage me, and give me true words of wisdom. Even my mum didn't know what I'm truly going through.

I'm going to be 21 soon and I really think I'm not ready to be 21. I can't even handle my own emotions, or know what I truly want. Then again, who does? Maybe realizing this is what makes us wiser. Just like how Socrates was named the wisest man of his time because he never thought he knew much.

I am so happy my internship is coming to an end. So what if I don't get a good testimony? There'll plenty other opportunities out there! There's a whole world to explore!! Okay, lets start with country first. Err..maybe state. Or city. Still.
Thank you Ms Grace (altho u don't read this) for making my week seem brighter already. And thank you, my homie, for being on my side, and putting up with me when I had my bitch fits!

I'm suddenly filled with so much love....

"I'm starting with the Man in the Mirror.
I'm asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
take a look at yourself, and then make the change........"

toodles.